Lucy was like a little sister to him…except she wasn’t.
Lucy was just a kid…except she wasn’t any more. Lucy didn’t want him to kiss her… except she was swaying towards him, and her gaze was fixed on his mouth as if she were willing it to come closer to hers.
Carlo found himself moving nearer.
Was he really this weak? Apparently he was. Or the attraction was just that strong.
Now was the last chance to dredge up his common sense, to gather his brain cells together, to do something rather than give in.
Lucy swallowed again. “What would it take for me to get a bite of that pie?”
His laugh was low. “I’m sure we can think of something.”
She didn’t move as he took the fork out of her unresisting hand and set it on the table. She didn’t blink as he drew her against him. And she didn’t make a sound as he finally succumbed to temptation and lowered his mouth to taste hers.
CHRISTIE RIDGWAY
is a native Californian and a born romantic. Her babysitting money was all spent on red licorice and romance novels, which makes it all the sweeter to now be writing love stories herself!
A USA TODAY bestselling author, she lives in Southern California with her three heroes – her husband and two sons. Visit her website at www.christieridgway.com.
Christie Ridgway
To all the little sisters out there who were never
taken as seriously as they should have been –
not that I know anything about that!
Chapter One
Lucy Sutton disliked first days.
Standing before the half-open door leading to her new boss’s office, Lucy admitted to herself that in truth she hated first days. As family legend had it, she’d hidden at the back of her closet on the first day of kindergarten. While that wasn’t clear in her memory, she could recall in vivid detail the first day of high school, the way the tag on her new shirt scratched the back of her neck, how she’d scratched at her nerve-induced hives. The worst, however, was the first day of a new job. Without a mother’s hand to hold or a gaggle of girlfriends with whom to get through the hours, that initial eight-to-five at a new place of employment could be excruciating.
Which didn’t help explain why Lucy had put herself through quite a few of those new days since graduating from college with an accounting degree three years before.
Swallowing to ease her dry mouth, she reminded herself that despite how her employers had liked her and her work, each of those three number-crunching jobs had not been quite right for her. Still, she knew that more than one of her relatives thought it was Lucy who wasn’t right for successful employment. That was family legend, too, that Lucy, nicknamed “Lucy Goosey” thanks to one of her ultraperfect elder siblings, was just too flighty and too fluffy to take anything seriously—or to be taken seriously by anyone.
Worst of all, though, was how legends like those had an uncomfortable way of becoming fact.
“Not that legend,” Lucy murmured to herself, steeling her spine and scratching at a rising bump on her left wrist. “This time I’m going to show every other Sutton that I’m as capable as they are.” This job would be different.
Even though it was only temporary secretarial work, she’d stick with it and succeed. Then she’d move on to finding the very best place for herself and her accounting skills. The right position was out there and this was her stepping stone to it.
Her gaze slid over to the nameplate on the wall beside her new boss’s office door. Carlo Milano. She had something to prove regarding him, too.
Specifically, that she was over him.
Taking a deep breath, she rapped gently on the grained wood.
“Come in,” a man’s voice called out.
Lucy found herself hesitating, and instead of moving forward she thought back to the last time she’d seen Carlo. It had been at a big do a couple of years before at her sister, Elise’s, home. He’d been making one of his rare appearances, leaning his rangy, six-foot-two body against a wall in a corner of the kitchen, dressed casually in jeans and a button-down shirt. Yet he’d looked anything but casual, his incredible face serious and leaner than ever, as if any soft and approachable thing about him had been pared away.
Pared away by heartaches she knew he wouldn’t speak of.
Oh, she’d attempted to lighten his mood that night. Nobody ever said Lucy wasn’t one to bring fun to a party. But after trying to get a laugh—she would have settled for a smile!—out of him with an amusing story about an old roommate, Carlo had merely shaken his head.
“Goose,” he’d said gently—yes, he’d actually called her Goose—“Use your pretty smiles and your charming wiles on someone who’ll appreciate them.”
Then Carlo had drawn his knuckle down the side of her suddenly heating cheek. In response, and on impulse—another of her weaknesses according to family lore—Lucy had risen to tiptoe and tried one last thing to give Carlo a little jolt of life by brushing her mouth against his.
Seven hundred and thirty-four nights had passed since then, and her lips still burned at the memory.
Her pride still smoldered around the edges, too—because within seconds Carlo had pushed her away and left his corner…never to be seen by her again.
Until now.
“I said ‘come in.’” Carlo’s almost impatient-sounding voice interrupted her reverie.
Showtime, she thought, and with one last stroke of right-hand fingernails against her itchy left wrist, Lucy walked into the office.
Her breath caught.
Carlo’s massive desk stood in front of her, the leather chair behind it empty, but the wall behind that—ah, that was really something, a whole expanse of glass that revealed a spectacular view of San Diego Bay. It looked like a huge, ten-by-twenty-foot postcard, in which Crayola sky-blue met grayer-blue waters dotted with sailboats and motorboats and yachts. The watercrafts’ movement created frothy, egg-white trails across the Pacific’s surface and was the only proof they were actually moving and not just part of a lifelike painting titled Stupendous Southern California.
It was a multimillion-dollar view that made clear to Lucy that Carlo Milano, longtime family friend and former cop, had struck gold in his high-priced and highly regarded events security business. Obviously he was busy enough to need her to fill in for his secretary for the next three weeks. The man who was her new—albeit temporary—boss had done well for himself.
But where was the man who was now her boss?
From the corner of her eye she caught movement at the far end of the room, beyond a spacious seating area that included a love seat, coffee table, two chairs and a built-in bar. A man in a dark jacket was standing there, his back half-turned to Lucy, his attention on a woman in an exquisite, powder-blue suit with matching sling backs. Shiny, pin-straight hair fell in a bright chestnut waterfall toward her waist.
The nape of Lucy’s neck burned and new hives popped out on her arms. Her hand reached up to finger the ends of her own wheat-colored, wavy hair. In her beige heels, khaki skirt and plain white blouse, she’d never felt so, well…washed-out.
And so like a third wheel. The pointy toes of Little Blue Suit’s little blue shoes were just inches from the toes of Carlo’s cordovan loafers, and the beautiful woman looked one breath away from latching on to his mouth.
What should Lucy do now? Interrupt the moment?
Surely not. Surely it would be better to backpedal out of the office. A woman who wanted—no, needed—to succeed at this job should go back to her desk. A woman who needed—and yes, wanted—to prove to herself she was over her unrequited crush on her boss should do nothing to bar the man from getting lucky.
Or from Carlo getting kissed. She should be happy for him as she snuck away. That’s what a grown-up, dignified, over-the-infatuation woman would do.
Grown-up, dignified, over-the-infatuation Lucy heard her throat clear. Not too loudly. But loud enough that her presence couldn’t be avoided or ignored.
Argh. How could she have done something so intrusive? Now Carlo wasn’t going to be pleased. Now she wasn’t feeling the least bit adult and dignified during her first moments on the first day of this new job. And then she heard herself make that attention-demanding, throat-clearing sound again.
Carlo’s head turned. He looked her way. “Hey.”
Lucy’s heart wobbled. There it was, that handsome face she’d never forgotten, those dark eyes taking her in. She couldn’t read their expression. Displeasure? Or was that relief?
She wiggled her fingers in return greeting. “Hey.” She hoped she looked more together than she felt. Dignified, remember? Adult. But…but…Carlo about to be kissed by someone else! Did her weird reaction to that show on her face? “I’m sorry, but you, um, you told me to come in and…”
“No problem.” He was moving away from the woman in the teensy suit. Her expression was annoyed, but Carlo didn’t appear to be the least affected, let alone angry that Lucy had interrupted his tête-à-tête. If a kiss had been in the offing, he didn’t seem worried about the missed opportunity.
Her spirits lifted a little. Maybe this particular first day wasn’t going to be too bad, despite her fears. As a matter of fact, Carlo did look somewhat pleased as he came toward her. See? It was all good. He didn’t appear aware of that little crush she’d once had on him. He may not even recall that impulsive lip-lock she’d laid on him herself two years ago.
Though his nonreaction at the time had only added to her embarrassment, now she was grateful that he seemed to have forgotten it. Yes, in his eyes at this minute she must appear dignified, not to mention all of her twenty-five grown-up years. She took his attitude as an omen for her upcoming job success.
“Damn,” he said as he came to a stop in front of her. His long arm reached out to muss her hair the way an uncle would do to a favored young niece. “Long time no see, Goose.”
Apparently if she hadn’t interrupted a smooch between Carlo and Little Blue Suit, it would have been a kiss-off kind of kiss, anyway. At least that’s what he intimated to Lucy—“Please, Carlo, no one calls me Goose anymore,” she’d said firmly—when, after ushering his chestnut-haired guest from the office, his first request as her brand-new boss was to ask her to send two dozen roses to the lady who’d just departed. Recipient: a Ms. Tamara Maxwell. Message line: It wasn’t you, it was me.
He didn’t quite meet her eyes when he imparted that interesting nugget, but muttered as he turned back to his office, “Look, we only went out a few times and she didn’t get it. I don’t do the couple thing.”
Lucy got it. She’d always gotten it, though the knowledge had never seemed to cool the particular thing she had for Carlo. Besides the paycheck, putting out that fire for good had been the most pressing reason to accept the job at his company.
When she’d moved back to San Diego, her dad, who was old friends with Carlo’s dad, suggested she fill the temporary position at McMillan & Milano before she started a serious search for an accounting position in town. It was supposed to be a favor to Carlo, but it worked for Lucy, too. Moving back to California from Arizona had left her strapped for cash, and acting as his secretary would solve another lingering problem.
The way she figured it, three weeks at McMillan & Milano would finally, for-once-and-for-all, extinguish what she’d always felt for him.
Heck, she decided, watching him walk away from her without a second glance and remembering how easily her humiliatingly juvenile nickname had tripped off his tongue, by quitting time today her libido should finally have heard the message. There was no hope. Carlo would never look at her with the kind of heat a man should hold for a woman.
The idea didn’t depress her in the least.
Really.
So she went about her duties, finding this office not so different from any other—including walking into the break room in the late afternoon to find the water cooler drained desert-dry. Stacked on the floor beside it were several full, capped bottles.
“‘Water, water, everywhere, but not a drop to drink,’” Lucy murmured, paraphrasing Coleridge to the empty room. She hadn’t just crunched numbers at school. Shaking her head, she pushed up the cuffs of her sleeves. Even though she wasn’t the one who’d tapped the last of the liquid, everyone knew first-day employees couldn’t leave the rest of the staff waterless.
No matter that at five foot two and a mere few orders of French fries over her ideal weight, it would be a struggle to replace the bottle. The task was still up to Lucy.
The empty one was a snap to lift away from the top of the water cooler. The blue cap on the closest full bottle took only seconds to peel off. Then, staring down the plastic barrel at her feet as if it were a wrestling opponent, she bent her knees to grasp it around its cool, rotund belly. As she straightened, she staggered on her feet, her heels clattering against the smooth hardwood floor.
Oh, Lord, don’t let me drop this.
“Goose, what are you doing?”
Instinct had her swinging toward the voice—Carlo’s voice—but that only made her more unsteady on her business-beige heels. Before she could do more than wheeze, there were a man’s arms around her—Carlo’s arms. Her back was up against his chest, her butt pressed to his—
“Stop,” he ordered into her ear.
“I wasn’t thinking anything!”
“Obviously not. You’re too small to take care of this. I meant ‘stop trying to help.’ Let go and let me have the bottle.”
“Oh.” She dropped her hands from the heavy plastic, but that still left her in the circle of Carlo’s arms. His warmth was at her spine, his delicious aftershave in her nose, his breath stirring the hair at her temple.
As a wild rash of prickly awareness broke out like more hives over her skin, she dipped under his arm and freed herself from his faux embrace. Without a glance at her, he stepped forward to flip the bottle on top of the cooler.
He turned to find her fanning her face.
“Goo—Lucy…” His voice trailed off as his gaze dropped lower. His eyes widened, then he looked back up. “You, uh, have a couple of buttons that came loose.”
She glanced down, gasped. In her struggles with the water bottle, apparently some of the buttons on her all-business blouse had popped free, revealing most of her white lace demibra. Her face burning, she clutched the shirt’s edges together with one hand while hastily refastening with the other.
“Relax,” Carlo said. “It’s just me.”
“Yeah. Just you,” Lucy repeated.
Just the man she’d dreamed about since she was fifteen years old.
She managed to get decent once more, but was still struggling with the top buttonhole when her new boss made a brotherly noise and moved in as she continued to fumble. “Here. Let me finish it up.”
He was wearing an easy, indulgent smile as he pushed her hands away and reached toward her collar. For an instant, his fingertips brushed the hollow at her throat and she jerked in helpless reaction, her pulse pounding against his touch. He froze, his fingertips now only making contact with button and fabric.
Still, his nostrils flared and she could smell her perfume rise around them, the scent surging stronger as her heart continued to hammer in her chest.
He cleared his throat. “Goose,” he said. “You smell like a girl.”
A nervous bubble of laughter escaped her throat. “Carlo, I am a girl.”
“Right. Yeah.” He made quick work of the stubborn top button, then retreated toward the doorway. There, he shoved his hands in his pockets and cocked his head, studying her. “Actually, you’re more than a girl. You’re a woman.”
“You noticed?” If it hadn’t been obvious before, this little comment made it crystal clear that the kitchen-kiss two years before hadn’t even rated his attention.
He leaned one shoulder against the jamb and gave her a half smile. “Now I think I’ll find it hard to forget.”
The deep note in his voice stroked like a brush down Lucy’s spine, bumping against each vertebrae. Her tongue swiped at her dry bottom lip and she watched his eyes follow the movement.
Suddenly, her heart sped up again, her pulse fluttering against the place at her throat that still throbbed from his accidental touch. Was…was Carlo looking at her with a masculine kind of interest?
She took in the gleam in his deep-set, dark eyes and then tried to find more clues in the aquiline line of his masculine nose and the sensual curve of his full mouth. He was a beautiful man, every artistic angle of his face a testament to his Italian heritage—but she couldn’t read his expression.
She licked her bottom lip again.
Carlo abruptly straightened, his gaze dropping away. “So, uh, Goose—”
“Lucy.” And didn’t that answer her question? No man would feel the least bit of lust for someone he thought of as “Goose.” Disappointment coursed through her, even though she’d taken the job for this—to finally accept there was no mutual heat between her and Carlo.
No heat. No hope.
“So, Lucy, I suppose I should get back to work.”
With an inward sigh, she followed him with her gaze as he strode down the hall, admiring the way the European cut of his pale blue dress shirt accentuated the muscled leanness of his back and waist. She didn’t try to find a word for how she felt about the curve of his tight, masculine behind in the dark slacks.
Three weeks, Lucy. Three weeks to look, but not touch. Three weeks to accept, finally, that’s all you’ll ever have of him.
A few minutes before five, she was congratulating herself on making it through the could-be-disastrous initial day, when a messenger appeared with a high-priority package for Carlo. Fine, she thought, she’d deliver the slender cardboard envelope and bid him good-night at the same time. Then her first day on the job, and her first day with Carlo, would be behind her.
At her tap on his door, he called her inside. This time he was sitting behind his desk, file folders in front of him, his computer screen angled just so.
He looked up as she entered. “Lucy. Just the person I’ve been thinking about all afternoon,” he said, leaning back in his chair.
Her fingers squeezed the package. “Me?” The view behind him was still awe-inspiring, but she couldn’t drag her gaze away from his face to appreciate it. He’d been thinking about her?
“I realize I don’t know what brought you back to San Diego.”
“Oh.” What to say? Dissatisfaction with the jobs she’d found in the accounting industry she’d spent four years preparing herself for? It made her sound so flighty. So, well…ditzy and goosey, especially when every Sutton sibling had gone straight from graduation to climbing the ladder of success in the corporations they’d joined right after college. “Of course, you know I’m from here, and…”
“Your father mentioned something to mine about disappointments in Phoenix?”
She shifted her weight on her feet. “Well…um…” Her face was heating up again and she didn’t know what more to say. While she knew the jobs in Phoenix had not been quite right for her, would Carlo, like her family, only see her as unable to settle down?
“I got to thinking you might have had man trouble.”
Lucy blinked. Man trouble? The only man trouble she’d had recently was the trouble she had forgetting about Carlo and the feelings for him she couldn’t seem to stamp out. “It’s not—”
“I admit that until just a couple of hours ago I was still picturing you at about fourteen years old in my mind. Banged-up knees, a mouthful of braces and all those white-gold curls.”
Terrific. While she’d been tossing and turning at night, wondering what it would be like to be with him, his lingering image of her was something that sounded horribly close to Pippi Longstocking.
Carlo cleared his throat. “But now I see that you’re all grown-up. Like I said earlier, a woman.”
Hmm. That sounded more interesting. And even more interesting than that was the way he was staring at her mouth again. Could it be…?
Uncertain, Lucy held her breath as the atmosphere in the room seemed to ripple with a new, tingly charge.
He jerked his gaze from her mouth to her eyes. “And I was thinking maybe you’re here because someone broke your heart.”
“Oh. No. N-not yet.” Because so far she hadn’t quite accepted she could never have Carlo. And now, with this new shimmer of tension in the room, she was even less sure it could never be.
No, Lucy. No! Don’t delude yourself!
Listening to her common sense, she interrupted the drift of the conversation by sliding the priority envelope in front of him. “Anyway, this just came for you. It looks important.”
When he picked it up, she turned. “I’ll see you tomorrow, Carlo.”
“Wait.”
She didn’t spin back around. “It’s after five.”
“But we’re old friends, and I was thinking that since you’re doing me the big favor of filling in—” His voice broke off. “Damn.”
Curiosity reversed the direction of her feet. “You were thinking…?”
He was staring down at what looked to be a pair of tickets in his hands. “I was thinking, no, I know,” he said, grimacing, “that I could use a date for tonight.”
Lucy swallowed. “Is there someone you’d like me to get on the phone for you? Tamara, or…?”
“You, Lucy.”
“Me?” She was beginning to sound like an echo machine.
Carlo was up and around his desk before she could run for the door. Not that she really wanted to. Not when he came close enough to do up her buttons again…or undo them.
The air was jittering with tension. And heat. Or maybe that was just her. No. No. Carlo was standing over her and she saw his nostrils flare as he took in another breath of her perfume. He was looking at her in a manner that surely he wouldn’t waste on Pippi Longstocking.
You smell like a girl.
I see that you’re all grown up.
A woman.
“So will you go with me to a party tonight?” he asked.
She curled her fingernails into her palms. “Oh, well…”
“I can introduce you around. Maybe find you—”
“The man I’ve been missing?” Lucy couldn’t say what made her utter the words. They came out of nowhere, sounding a little hoarse, a little flirty, a little like she was flirting with him.
She felt both appalled and excited. Outside of a few jokes and that one humiliating kiss, she’d never been overt when dealing with him.
Carlo’s brow lifted, and a corner of his mouth ticked up, too. One of his fingers reached out to wrap itself around a lock of her hair. He tugged. “Lucy. Is that what you’re looking for?”
Her tongue trailed across her bottom lip and she lowered her lashes—again in what seemed a totally unthought-out, yet obviously flirty way—to gaze at him through them. “It depends on how far I’ll have to go to find him.”
Carlo shook his head, an amused, masculine smile quirking both corners of his mouth. “My, my, my. You have grown up.”
Enough to know what this was. No mistaking it now. Carlo was looking at her with a new kind of interest, with the sort of heat she’d only fantasized about before. Her blood raced through her body, waking up thousands of nerve endings with the thrilling news.
Carlo’s looking at me the way a man looks at a woman!
His knuckle ran down her cheek and she felt it all the way to her toes. “Eight o’clock,” he said. “Cocktail attire.”
“Yes.” Yes, yes, yes!
“Where shall I pick you up?”
The racing movement of Lucy’s blood stopped, stilling in one fell swoosh. That shimmering heat continued between them, but she wondered for just how long.
“Where, Lucy?”
“My sister’s. Until I find my own place, I’m staying with Elise.”
And then Lucy had her answer. The tension, the temperature, the thread of attraction running between them didn’t last even another moment, instead dropping like an anchor from one of the boats traveling through the bay she could see over his shoulder. She leveled her gaze at the pretty sight, even as she noted the unpretty view of Carlo’s expression closing down.
His hand dropped, his feet stepped away. “I’ll be there at eight.”
He didn’t renege on the invitation. Former cop, old family friend that he was, he wouldn’t be out-and-out rude to her. Even if it meant picking Lucy up at the home of her married sister.
Her sister. The unrequited love of Carlo Milano’s life.
Pulsuz fraqment bitdi.