“We’re going to pool our warmth.”
Jacquelyn started to shake her head.
“Look,” he insisted, “believe me, I’m not making a pass at you. When I do that, I don’t bother with tricks. But we could be in this cavern for some time yet, and you’re not freezing to death on my watch. Now stow the modesty and crawl in here.”
“Fine,” she snapped as she wiggled into the sleeping bag. “Besides, we’ve got a dozen layers of clothing between us.”
Already she was warmer. But he was so close. And so was the scent of him—dark, male and enticing. Dangerous….
Dear Reader,
Silhouette is celebrating its 20th anniversary throughout 2000! So, to usher in the first summer of the millennium, why not indulge yourself with six powerful, passionate, provocative love stories from Silhouette Desire?
Jackie Merritt returns to Desire with a MAN OF THE MONTH who’s Tough To Tame. Enjoy the sparks that fly between a rugged ranch manager and the feisty lady who turns his world upside down! Another wonderful romance from RITA Award winner Caroline Cross is in store for you this month with The Rancher and the Nanny, in which a rags-to-riches hero learns trust and love from the riches-to-rags woman who cares for his secret child.
Watch for Meagan McKinney’s The Cowboy Meets His Match—an octogenarian matchmaker sets up an ice-princess heiress with a virile rodeo star. The Desire theme promotion THE BABY BANK, about sperm-bank client heroines who find love unexpectedly, concludes with Susan Crosby’s The Baby Gift. Wonderful newcomer Sheri WhiteFeather offers another irresistible Native American hero with Cheyenne Dad. And Kate Little’s hero reunites with his lost love in a marriage of convenience to save her from financial ruin in The Determined Groom.
So come join in the celebration and start your summer off on the supersensual side—by reading all six of these tantalizing Desire books!
Enjoy!
Joan Marlow Golan
Senior Editor, Silhouette Desire
is the author of over a dozen novels of hardcover and paperback historical and contemporary women’s fiction. In addition to romance, she likes to inject mystery and thriller elements into her work. Currently she lives in the Garden District of New Orleans with her two young sons, two very self-entitled cats and a crazy red mutt. Her favorite hobbies are traveling to the Arctic and, of course, reading!
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Epilogue
“Jacquelyn, it’s early Monday morning, and this is Hazel McCallum calling, dear. I have a…slightly unusual request to make of you. The last time you were here, it seems we got a bit sidetracked from your interview about Jake. It might be better if we meet at my home again. Please call at your convenience to arrange a time.”
Jacquelyn Rousseaux hit the rewind button on the answering machine, feeling heat rise into her face.
Last time we got a bit sidetracked. My God, was that a polite understatement!
Jacquelyn still felt mortified for her uncharacteristic lack of restraint. Back in Atlanta, even those who had known her for years often learned little about her private life, yet, once she and Hazel had gotten to talking about life and hopes and dreams, she found she’d opened up like a floodgate to the older woman, who was practically a stranger. Jacquelyn had talked about the most personal and humiliating details of her life as if it were a catharsis.
She swept that unpleasant memory away, glancing at an old case clock in the back corner. It had kept near-perfect time in the office of the town’s newspaper, the Mystery Gazette, since 1890.
Almost 10 a.m. She returned Hazel’s call and quickly arranged to meet the Matriarch of Mystery, as Jacquelyn had secretly dubbed the famous cattle baroness, at 1 p.m. When she pressed Hazel for more information about that “slightly unusual request,” the cagey old dame told her only, “You’ll find out soon enough.”
A pleasant-looking, middle-aged woman in a beige pantsuit stepped out of a Plexiglas cubicle at the front of the office. Managing Editor, Bonnie Lofton, held a pica pole in one hand, an X-Acto blade in the other. The Gazette was one of the last weekly newspapers in the country that was not computer composed. Bonnie laid out each offset-press page by hand for a distinctly “old-time” look, in the spirit of Mystery’s upcoming sesquicentennial.
“Morning, Jacquelyn,” Bonnie greeted her summer staffer. “Was that Hazel’s voice I just heard?”
“None other. I already called her back. She wants to see me again. Won’t tell me why, either. Not even a hint.”
“Uh-huh, that’s Hazel, all right. Sometimes she’s Mystery’s biggest mystery. Her heart’s so generous, that woman won’t let one person in this valley ever go cold or hungry. But she’s the boss, and she expects everybody to know it.”
“I hope it’s not some problem with the last article I wrote,” Jacquelyn said worriedly. “I verified all the quotes and double-checked the facts.”
Bonnie gave a Gaelic wave of dismissal. “Oh, pouf! Are you kidding? You’re the best feature writer we ever under-paid. I’ll bet you anything your series on Jake McCallum ends up winning an award. Not even three years out of journalism school, and you already compose copy like a wire-service pro.”
“Oh, right. I’ll bet you say that to all the boss’s kids.”
Bonnie wagged the pica pole at her. “Your old man’s not the boss, kiddo, I am. He’s the owner, by a quirk of corporate mergers, of this and a dozen other newspapers he probably doesn’t ever read. I don’t have to suck up to him or his kids. But face it, girl—you didn’t have to come here and work for us, yet you’ve proven you’re a journalist tried and true now. You’re genuinely talented, and talent’s a blessing nobody’s money can buy.”
Jacquelyn smiled. She was pleased by Bonnie’s firm but kind words. Bonnie, like many of the native Montanans Jacquelyn had met during her summer idylls in Mystery, was more reserved and private than folks back in Atlanta. Compliments were familiar verbal rituals in the South; out West, however, one earned and treasured them.
But talent, Jacquelyn thought with an inner stab of despair, is only one dimension of personality. For all her looks and education and “correct upbringing,” she was discovering it took more, so much more, to win at life—and love.
Joe’s words came back to her, cruel and haunting, from that gray day in Atlanta. I’m sorry, Jackie, but it’s just not my fault you’re solid ice from the neck down. Gina is everything you can’t seem to be.
With two brief sentences, her fiance left her for the woman she had trusted most. She suddenly felt a trembling heat behind her eyelids. For a panicky moment she feared she was going to lose it and cry right in front of her editor. With a superhuman effort she instead willed her face into a bright smile.
“Well, talent or no, Mystery’s sesquicentennial has become Hazel’s obsession. The last story I wrote on her great-grandfather Jake was reprinted upstate, and they got some dates mixed up. Hazel practically had a cow.”
Bonnie gave her a rueful grin. “I can see why she’s touchy about her family name. It will die with her, you know. That naturally makes her urgent to leave an accurate record.”
“The last McCallum,” Jacquelyn said softly. “I chickened out when I tried to ask her why. I mean, I know her husband was killed in a car wreck near Lewistown when she was still young. But why didn’t she remarry?”
Bonnie smiled. “You may be smart as the dickens and pretty as four aces, but you still don’t understand the essence of Hazel McCallum. The tougher Westerners are, the deeper they feel things. For women like Hazel, true love comes once, and it comes forever.”
Bonnie had only meant to explain, not wound. But Jacquelyn couldn’t help filtering Bonnie’s remark through the harsh lens of recent events back in Atlanta. Sure you’ve got brains and looks, Rousseaux, she told herself. But you’re an ice princess—so much of one that your own boyfriend dumped you for your own so-called best friend.
Bonnie seemed to note the shadow that crossed her face. “Open mouth, insert foot,” Bonnie apologized, touching Jacquelyn’s shoulder in a gesture of sympathy. “I’m sorry, hon. Look, I’m all caught up on my work right now. Wanna have a cup of coffee and just shoot the breeze?”
In her secret heart of hearts, Jacquelyn welcomed Bonnie’s attempt at friendship. For years she had sensed a “secret self” within her who was desperately yearning to thaw those layers of ice. But that secret self simply was not strong enough to endure the brutal slings and arrows of romantic fortune.
Joe and Gina had hurt her at the very core of her being, had shaken not only her world but her very soul. And the only way Jacquelyn knew how to deal with such trauma was to cover it over with a layer of frost—numbing it, yes, but also leaving it fully intact. That’s precisely how Stephanie Rousseaux had taught her daughter to cope—as she herself endured a loveless marriage to Jacquelyn’s cruel, critical father.
So even as her heart secretly responded to Bonnie’s warmth, Jacquelyn knew her survival reflexes would chill the woman out.
“Thanks, Bonnie, but I’d better not. If I’m going to make the Wednesday deadline with this next installment, I’d better get to work.”
“Okay, busy lady. But the offer’s open.”
Bonnie watched her from concerned eyes. Then she added, “You know what else? When he was young, my grandpa rode for Jake McCallum on the Lazy M spread. Every man who rode for Jake could quote the old man’s favorite saying. ‘The best way to cure a boil is to lance it.”’
“All right, then, A.J.,” Hazel confirmed, “I’ll see you around, say, two o’clock this afternoon at my place? Good. I can always count on you Clayburn men, can’t I? It shouldn’t take too long.”
Hazel still used the stodgy, old black phones from the fifties. She hung the handset back in its cradle, a determined smile smoothing out the lines around her mouth.
She strolled, still lost in thought, toward a big bay window in the parlor’s north wall. At seventy-five, she considered herself still young. Every morning she arose, twisted her long, white hair into the ever-present chignon at the back of her neck and got going, running the enormous ranch from her cell phone and Jake’s original rolltop desk. She was still quite active, too, though a long succession of cattle-country winters had left her “a little rusted in the hinges,” as she often said, dismissing the arthritis in her joints.
There was still a lot of life in her that she meant to live.
But…
Halting in the window bay, she parted the curtains and the lace liners with both hands to gaze outside. Beyond the hay-raked pastures of the Lazy M, ragged tatters of cloud drifted across a late-morning sky the pure blue color of a gas flame. The lower slopes of the mountains surrounding Mystery Valley bristled with conifers and white sycamores. Higher up, the slopes were wooded only in the gulches, rising in ascending folds to granite points draped in white ermine.
Looking at the familiar yet still-stunning view made Hazel think about Jacquelyn Rousseaux and the conversation they’d had during her interview.
The girl had admitted being hurt, betrayed, deeply disillusioned. She honestly believed that love had given her the permanent go-by. Hazel had seen all that when Jacquelyn opened up to her last week. But Hazel also recognized how deeply, how desperately the young woman wanted to believe again in the old dreams, the “corny” ideals about love, men and life.
Toward that very end, among others, Hazel had a plan. She wanted, more than anything else, to see Mystery go on being the kind of town it was always meant to be. Rodeo star and dear family friend, A. J. Clayburn, fit the bill exactly; he’d been out to stud for too many years without marrying and settling down. Hazel knew full well why the cowboy’s heart was frozen, but when Jacquelyn Rousseaux began to open up to her in the interview, Hazel realized it was time the cowboy’s heart got to melting. And she’d sat looking at the cool, platinum-haired beauty who was just the one to do it.
The time was right. Hazel wasn’t getting any younger or more energetic. And she had to face the hard facts: she was the last McCallum, and she would leave no line behind her. Only one thing could keep Mystery from obliteration under an influx of careless investors and outsiders like Jacquelyn’s father, the developer Eric Rousseaux: new blood had to be carefully, passionately mixed with old. She meant to create new families from the ones already committed to the town.
Simply put, she had made a list of good folks in Mystery who needed hitching up. Despite being long past retirement age, Hazel, matriarch of all the land as far as the eye could see, was now taking on a second career—matchmaking. And one of her first clients was none other than the troubled beauty who wrote for the town newspaper.
Still, Hazel fretted about the prospects for success in Jacquelyn’s case. If someone wanted to know how a young woman might likely turn out in life, they had only to look at her mother. And Hazel had seen the abject hopelessness in the eyes of Stephanie Rousseaux, who summered in Mystery with Jacquelyn. Not exactly the ideal role model for a daughter reeling from emotional disaster.
But the plan was much bigger than Jacquelyn Rousseaux, even though it began with her. Hazel’s fires might be banked, but not her big ambition. Her idea, in fact, was literally as big as an entire town.
Again her Prussian-blue eyes sought those majestic white peaks on the horizon. For her plan to work, Hazel needed women to match those mountains. Strong, beautiful, proud, enduring women. Women just like Jacquelyn Rousseaux, broken heart, Southern drawl, disillusionment and all.
Or am I wrong this time, Hazel wondered. Mistaking hope for reality, a plow horse for a racer?
She would find out in about three hours, when Jacquelyn finally understood what the older woman expected her to do.
“Jake wasn’t an educated man,” Hazel confided to Jacquelyn. “Swore like a trooper, when he thought there were no women or children nearby to hear him. Used to joke that he spoke only two languages—American and cussing. But he sure did have what they call money smarts.”
The two women sat near each other in the parlor’s nineteenth-century gilt chairs. Jacquelyn’s microcassette recorder included a tiny but powerful high-ambience remote microphone, so she could tape Hazel without rudely shoving anything into her face.
“Before he died,” Hazel resumed, “Jake even became part owner in the Comstock Lode. That was a rich deposit of silver and gold ore discovered by his old partner, Henry T. P. Comstock, near Virginia City, Nevada. Jake’s side ventures eventually allowed my grandpa to be the first cattleman in these northern ranges to develop Shorthorn and Hereford breeds. Better meat than the Longhorn stock from the Texas ranges. Sold higher, too.”
While Hazel spoke, Jacquelyn again admired Mystery Valley’s oldest and still finest ranch house. Built in the 1880s, it had replaced the original settlers’ cabin.
Its hand-hewn hemlock beams had been transported cross-country by cumbersome freight wagons. Other materials, too, had been selected to reflect success, not frontier frugality: a carved cherrywood staircase, hard-maple flooring, fireplaces manteled with blood onyx, marble and slate. On the wall behind Hazel, bright buffalo-hide shields flanked a beautiful wash drawing in a gold scrollwork frame. It depicted a small herd of Shorthorns splashing across a river, whipping the water to spray.
“Jake was a tough man,” Hazel reminisced in her deep, still-vibrant voice. “He insisted that all his children be educated, even his daughters, which was unusual in his day. That included my grandma, his daughter Mystery.”
Hazel fell silent, thoughtfully studying her young interviewer.
Jacquelyn felt as if she towered over the petite older woman, even seated, though she was only five-four. She waited for the next goldmine of information and was embarrassed to find the conversation again focused on her.
“You know I don’t cotton to short hair on women, but I think I like yours. In my day we’d call your hair color platinum. Marilyn-Monroe platinum. Quite glamorous. And I do believe your eyes are sea-green, aren’t they?”
Puzzled at the inspection, Jacquelyn quickly thumbed off the recorder. Something in the old girl’s determined visage signaled that the interview part of the visit was over. She supposed they were going to get around to the “slightly unusual request.”
“You know, Jacquelyn, at my age a woman can’t help warming her hands at the fire of the past. But while we should always recall our dead, this world belongs to the living.”
Jacquelyn raised an interrogatory eyebrow, waiting for more. “Yes?” she encouraged.
But Hazel kept her waiting, as if she was mulling possible explanations for the old matriarch’s secret.
Finally she said, “You told me last time that you want to capture the true feel of Jake’s pioneer experience, remember?”
“Of course. I hoped my articles were doing that.”
“Your articles are wonderful, dear. Quite honestly, I expected the usual twaddle and bunkum about grizzled pioneers. But you’ve captured the essence of Jake McCallum better than any other writer who’s tried. And many have.”
Hazel snatched up a copy of last week’s Mystery Gazette from a pedestal stand beside her chair.
“‘Jake McCallum,”’ she read out loud, “‘was a man who went a great distance while others were still debating whether to leave today or tomorrow.”’
The corners of her eyes crinkled deeply when Hazel laughed. “Jacquelyn, you do understand that old rascal’s basic nature. But for your own sake I want you to go that great distance, too. Or at least part of it. The important part.”
“I’m sorry, I don’t understand.”
“I’d like you to actually repeat Jake’s original journey. Not the entire trip, of course. As you already know, his original plan was to travel from his home in St. Louis all the way north to the Yukon to mine for gold.”
Jacquelyn smiled. “Yes. Until he was waylaid in a beautiful Montana valley to help a rancher with some straying cattle, right?”
“Right as rain. Because that rancher had a pretty daughter of marrying age named Libbie. One look at her, and Jake wrote back home that he was settling in Montana. The part of his journey that Jake’s journal mentions most was the hard, but beautiful, five-day ride through the mountains and Eagle Pass to this valley. Called McCallum’s Trace to this day.”
“And that’s the part of the journey you’d like me to make?” Jacquelyn mulled the odd suggestion for a few moments. Well, so what if it was a bit…eccentric of Hazel to suggest it? After all, Jacquelyn didn’t want to be one of those journalists who never left the office to find a story. And it really was an important piece of American history.
“All right,” she finally agreed, her face brightening. “It sounds like fun. My family has a Hummer at the summer lodge here that usually just sits in the garage. I’ll borrow it. I could also—what?”
She broke off, confused at the way Hazel was shaking her head to silence her.
“Jacquelyn, we’re talking about the ‘true feel,’ remember? Your own words. My lands, Jake didn’t cross those high-altitude passes in a Hummer—nor was there a highway, just an old Sioux Indian game trail. That’s still all there is up there.”
Jacquelyn’s jaw dropped slightly, and her eyes widened. “Hazel. You want me to ride across the original trace? Five days on horseback?”
“Well, you do ride, don’t you? I’ve seen you in your fancy riding britches. And there’s horses at your place.”
“Well…yes, I ride. But—”
Hazel dismissed her objections with a careless wave. “I rode that trail myself when I was about your age. Never in winter, of course, as Jake did. In August, just like you’ll be doing. Gets a bit nippy at night, especially up in Eagle Pass. Sure, you might even see some snow, but it’s quite exhilarating.”
“Hazel, you simply don’t understand. I ride, yes. But it’s the English style I learned at boarding school. You know—dressage, preparation for show jumping, things like disciplined turns and reverses, fancy jumps and tricky hurdles. Not trail riding in rugged mountains. Hazel, I—that is, I’ve never even been a Girl Scout. I wouldn’t know the most basic—”
“Oh, all your objections are just pee doodles,” Hazel scoffed, her eyes cutting to an ormolu clock on the mantel. “Because you’re going to have the perfect guide for this little trek.”
“Guide?” Jacquelyn repeated, immediately feeling like a parrot.
“I should say! None other than Mystery’s own world-champion saddle-bronc rider, A. J. Clayburn.”
Hazel opened up a photo album lying on the pedestal table and passed it over to her visitor. “This is A. J. at the rodeo at the Calgary Stampede, accepting his World Cup. One of the proudest days in Mystery’s recent memory.”
Jacquelyn took in gunmetal-blue eyes as direct as a Remington, an unruly thatch of thick, brown hair that touched his collar. The scornful twist to the mouth irritated her immediately. The handsome man in this photo radiated the easy calm and confidence, bordering on arrogance, of men who were good at handling animals—and thought the talent translated to women, as well.
“You’ve seen him around town, no doubt?” Hazel inquired.
Jacquelyn nodded, still too numb and confused by all this to speak. She had seen him around town, all right. How could anyone miss those metallic eyes and his wide-shouldered, slim-hipped frame? A. J. Clayburn was straight off the cover of a Western novel—but whether the hero or the bad guy, she wasn’t sure. Still, there was no mistaking the living, breathing personification of a great American myth.
But there was no way Hazel could expect her to travel McCallum’s Trace with this man. It was like putting a duck in the desert. He was utterly foreign to Jacquelyn’s genteel, urban world, and vice versa.
Hazel seemed to read some of these thoughts in her visitor’s stunned face.
“Believe me, honey,” she assured, taking the photo album back from her. “You’ll quickly learn to appreciate A.J.’s qualities. He’s what we Western gals like to call an ‘unflighty’ man. Nowadays, of course, that’s not what it once was. I don’t recall any flighty men who took Omaha Beach.”
“Hazel, I just don’t think—”
“Generally,” Hazel nattered on blithely, cutting her off, “when he’s not on the rodeo circuit, you’ll find A.J. perched on the top board of a corral somewhere in the valley.”
“Hazel, honestly, I can’t see me—”
“But he’s not riding this season, you understand. At the year’s first rodeo in Miles City, A.J. caught his spur in a cinch. The horse went over on his leg and crushed it. Now he’s knitting, but it was a bad fall. It’s not clear if the doctors will certify him for the circuit again. Leaves A.J. with some free time to take on guide jobs for me.”
“I’m sorry he’s had an accident. But—”
“Not that he’s pining away and burning any daylight,” Hazel charged on. “Lands no! A.J. stays busy—a little too busy, if you catch my meaning.” She winked. “He’s left a mighty long trail of broken hearts, but still I remember his ma and pa. They were something fierce in love. The kind you don’t see nowadays. A love like the kind I had.” Hazel smiled at her. “Oh, he’ll have a love like that one day. It’s just taken him a while to come around. In the meantime, while his leg’s been healing, he’s helping out his old partner Cas Davis. Cas runs a popular rodeo-riding school in Thompson Falls.”
Hazel finally paused to take a breath.
“I can’t do this,” Jacquelyn blurted out. “I’m sorry. Not only am I unprepared for the ride, but A. J. Clayburn is a stranger to me. I can’t just go camping in the wilderness—”
“He won’t be a stranger in a few minutes,” Hazel assured her, again glancing at the clock. “A.J. will be here any moment now to meet you.”
For a short, panicked moment, Jacquelyn felt her breath catch.
“Meet me?” she repeated foolishly, stunned at this massive loss of control in her very controlled life. Am I a mail-order bride? she almost asked in disbelief.
“Since you’ll be spending so much time alone with A.J.,” Hazel added, “I suppose I should also mention that he has a recently acquired police record.”
Jacquelyn could feel the blood drain from her cheeks. Hazel laughed.
“Steady, dear. He can be rehabilitated. I’m quite sure of it. You’ve heard of Red Lodge, Montana?”
Still shell-shocked, Jacquelyn answered woodenly. “The town where cowboys and rodeo types rendezvous every Fourth of July for a party, right?”
“I suppose you could call that annual riot a party. Anyhow, this year A.J. was arrested for riding his horse into the Snag Bar saloon. Evidently, a deputy or two ‘accidentally ran their jaws into my fist,’ as A.J. put it in court.”
Oh, great, Jacquelyn thought, her stomach sinking. So he’s a drunken brawler, too? How lucky can one woman get?
“If you really want the true feel of being with Jake McCallum and along on his ride,” Hazel told the reporter, “you couldn’t be with a more similar man. Just as Jake was, A.J. is fast out of the gate.”
Hazel laughed at the alarm that must have flickered in Jacquelyn’s eyes.
“Dear, relax. It’s just an old saying. Means a man is clear about what he wants and how to get it. Tell me…is it your skin you’re fretting about?”
“My…skin?”
“I’ve always been told you Southern women take special pride in your beautiful complexions. You’re living proof of that.”
“Thank you,” she said politely, but it was obvious that Hazel was only jabbering like this to head off any more objections about her wild idea.
She was on the verge of demanding why it was so important that she make this mountain trek. But just then a two-tone chime sounded within the parlor. Nervous fear made her heart speed up for the next few beats.
“That will be A.J.,” Hazel announced with evident satisfaction. “Donna will let him in.”
The tap of solid boot heels reached their ears as the new arrival moved through the kitchen and dining room. Jacquelyn’s trapped-deer desperation didn’t seem to escape Hazel’s notice—or her sympathy.
“Everything will be just fine, dear, I promise. I won’t sugarcoat the dangers of those mountains. But with a guide like A. J. Clayburn, you’ll be fine.”
“But I really don’t understand why this is necessary. You said you liked my articles—that they were authentic,” Jacquelyn whispered in a rush to beat the footsteps. “Why is this so important? Why?”
Something secret and mysterious glinted in Hazel’s eyes—something born of great ambition, great determination and great love. But her evasive answer only further frustrated Jacquelyn.
“Be patient. Making this journey will change your life, I assure you. Very few have taken it. Well, would you look who’s here, Jacquelyn! Timely, yet! Well, my land, A.J., don’t just stand there gawking, come on in. She doesn’t bite!”
Pulsuz fraqment bitdi.